Writing outside-in

Looked at the opening pages of a thriller for Kindle I started some time ago and it's pretty good. I do know how to wtite pop lit. After all, a mystery I wrote ... Dead Body In A Small Room ... was a finalist for mystery of the year. I have the craft. What I lack is the interest and ambition. Escapist storytelling feels more like bullshit the older I get. It's a shame ha ha. Story of my life. I can bore myself so easily. Have to keep digging for surprises and revelations. i also become more elitist the older I get. Doomed to marginality, the herald of oblivion.