Gloating

Here's an irony: even as I cringe at a passage I find in the book, at other moments the reading makes me gloat, as if to say, Damn, this is great stuff! I think the ending, the final 20% or so, is especially strong. I think it's now within my ability to make this as good a novel as I'm capable of and with a more ambitious concept than anything I've written, well, this looks promising indeed. I just hope I don't miss any of the passages that make me puke ha ha.