Brooding, revising

Major changes in both story and characters of the novella, as I brood around its themes ... good changes, I think, but not much of what I've written so far is on the new track, so Monday I'll start over. This is typical of my dirty process, in which the first draft is the activity during which I discover what I actually want to write about. I've always been messy this way. Well, sometimes I get things close to whole cloth, but usually the process is pretty messy. I actually enjoy it because it's filled with surprises and some of them really impress me. I like to impress myself.